lost in time

I was thinking a lot about my blog lately, where should I go with it and how I should reach my wanted goals for it. And I came to one clear conclusion, that I really have to start writing in English. Why, you may ask. First of all, I clearly understand that there are more perspectives for me to attract a bigger and more various readers base if the language I write is known in more than one country. Also, my future is bound with Canada (or abroad in general), so I really do need to practice my English as it is not as good as I would want. And lastly, writing a blog in English would be a perfect practice for my book, because I am writing it in English too and I feel that I have lots of gaps (not knowing even some words or having no idea how to make them sound good in content). I hope that my blog won't go down the hill from now on (though it would be hard, knowing that I am so lazy sometimes and in some days it is really hard for me just to sit down and put my thoughts in order). To finish this short introduction I do hope that YOU, my reader, will understand my choice and won't judge my silly mistakes, I will get better in time, I promise.

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Most of my life I thought that I was born in the wrong times. Sometimes I feel like I don't understand the music, movies or the way people dress these days. Some people surprise me with their thinking or thoughts about life. Everything is so complicated nowadays, and I am a person who is easily stressed out; there are too many times when after a long day I just want to lay down under my blanket, read a book and forget about the world outside my window. And when I read books about Elizabethan-Victorian era's , or watch a movie, I feel so comfortable, warm and.. in place. I understand that these times were not as perfect as I may imagine, but I still strongly believe that I would live a happier life only because I fell that I belong there. Everything was so different, so simple in a way. Royals, dances, manners, love, romance, jewelery, hair styles, mistresses, perfect dresses and castles, the language! I adore every bit of those times and I could go on forever.


I believed I couldn't be the only one who feels and thinks like me, so I googled my problem and I was right, there are more people than I imagined, who feels that they don't belong in this world. Everyone has a different era that they feel close to. Of course, that can mean nothing at all, maybe we just really adore the stories from that time, maybe we just like one little thing from that particular year, but maybe we actually were born on the wrong time. Or maybe our souls are from that era, if you believe in reincarnation, and that is why we feel like we want to live in the exact period. I would love to think that I was actually a queen, princess or a lady in England, French or Scotland, married to a handsome king and maybe beheaded for treason or accused of using black magic or killed by some enemies who wanted my crown. And now I am stuck in 2014, lost and unhappy with how much the world changed. Well, who knows, maybe there is some truth in all of this.

At least I know that I am not the only one and that I'm not crazy! Also I am happy that I have books, movies and internet, all of these things can bring me back in time, even if it's only in my imagination. And of course, I still have my dreams and writing, then I can be whatever I want whenever I want.

If you feel the same, it would be a pleasure reading your thoughts on all of this. When you would like to live and why?

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